December 14, 2007
November 26, 2007
November 24, 2007
意義
25/11/07- a post on meaning
tse days, ive been in tghts. thinking vastly abt life, contemplating abt the future. at this age u begin to grow out of it, taking the step to think & decide wts life ahead.. u begin to mould ur life and make it ideal as such as u become an adult.. with tt change, it then remains in u as long for time.
i remembered the days of care wch my parents offered so generously. now that ive grown, i questioned abt hw im going to have to care them in return. the issue of living with them with inclusion of my partner. many times, i can virtually watch every child as they grew, leaving their families to live an independent life. no doubt, its sweet.. the freedom, privacy.. and less burden than living with old ones.
when i looked back, i cudnt forget their unconditional love. i've tght abt my demanding career, my future family and my elders. being 22yr old & only son, it puts up with me. but in the end, i knw i have this responsibility. i cudn't imagine hw it wud be like. hws my role in such an involving family- wife, parents. but all in my mind- its not tt i need to tk of my elders. its tt i will tk of them.
besides the family factor, i tght abt my career. i had the chance to get a taste of cardio and gp. cardio is practically time-load demanding.. gp is relaxing but less challenging. the whole exp of working stunned me for a while. i just loved uni life~
when u strt working, u get up everyday at 8. then go home at 5. but if ure in cardio, u'll do night shifts and OT. then.. u just keep working, hoping to wait for weekend to get urself ditched till late at nite, then find urself worn out for next working day.. it really got me into thinking.. is life tt way? work.. earn.. work.. earn.. hw 'cool' is the meaning of life to work and earn.. but one tng to note.. u work and earn for the family. tt makes meaning.
i typically tght i just wanted to earn a house for my elders. aside tt, i hoped to be a dr of significance at least based on my interest. other than tt.. hmm.. that will come naturally... smetmes i also hoped to be sound in spiritual sense.. dauntingly, it alwez doesnt go in my favor. i'm already admitting myself to be marooned frm most things for years to come.. still taking it positively.
exam results will come out only after 10 dec. if i fail, i dun think i've the time nor determ to study for the supp. its gonna be very unpredictable. but wts bad? its just 1st year.. -_- on last note, i just wish for some frens. live life.. even if i've not been there..
- keith
tse days, ive been in tghts. thinking vastly abt life, contemplating abt the future. at this age u begin to grow out of it, taking the step to think & decide wts life ahead.. u begin to mould ur life and make it ideal as such as u become an adult.. with tt change, it then remains in u as long for time.
i remembered the days of care wch my parents offered so generously. now that ive grown, i questioned abt hw im going to have to care them in return. the issue of living with them with inclusion of my partner. many times, i can virtually watch every child as they grew, leaving their families to live an independent life. no doubt, its sweet.. the freedom, privacy.. and less burden than living with old ones.
when i looked back, i cudnt forget their unconditional love. i've tght abt my demanding career, my future family and my elders. being 22yr old & only son, it puts up with me. but in the end, i knw i have this responsibility. i cudn't imagine hw it wud be like. hws my role in such an involving family- wife, parents. but all in my mind- its not tt i need to tk of my elders. its tt i will tk of them.
besides the family factor, i tght abt my career. i had the chance to get a taste of cardio and gp. cardio is practically time-load demanding.. gp is relaxing but less challenging. the whole exp of working stunned me for a while. i just loved uni life~
when u strt working, u get up everyday at 8. then go home at 5. but if ure in cardio, u'll do night shifts and OT. then.. u just keep working, hoping to wait for weekend to get urself ditched till late at nite, then find urself worn out for next working day.. it really got me into thinking.. is life tt way? work.. earn.. work.. earn.. hw 'cool' is the meaning of life to work and earn.. but one tng to note.. u work and earn for the family. tt makes meaning.
i typically tght i just wanted to earn a house for my elders. aside tt, i hoped to be a dr of significance at least based on my interest. other than tt.. hmm.. that will come naturally... smetmes i also hoped to be sound in spiritual sense.. dauntingly, it alwez doesnt go in my favor. i'm already admitting myself to be marooned frm most things for years to come.. still taking it positively.
exam results will come out only after 10 dec. if i fail, i dun think i've the time nor determ to study for the supp. its gonna be very unpredictable. but wts bad? its just 1st year.. -_- on last note, i just wish for some frens. live life.. even if i've not been there..
- keith
November 8, 2007
live-in 07/08
live-in opening soon..
(be blessed with music-rhythm, be blessed with wonders of life it can bring, blessed living-in it, blessed for it to come..) - keith
(be blessed with music-rhythm, be blessed with wonders of life it can bring, blessed living-in it, blessed for it to come..) - keith
October 16, 2007
friday
ah...feeling weak 2day.. skipped pbl.. handed in my med cert. it was yest already when i knew it was coming.. my throat was sore.. my nose was consistently runny & the day was hot. i developed fever at midnight.. aches over my body.. spitted green sputum in morn. nw.. feeling bit malaise. so.. is it viral or bacterial?
hmm.. it was interesting yest coz i attended a session on 3rd year rotations in brunei, delivered by one of the drs frm panaga hospital, kb. he was sharing abt his experiences in brunei to the local aussies & it was hilarious- he mentioned.. brunei has 2 weathers- either you get hot or wet, or very hot & very wet. you've nothing to worry in brunei- its safety.. its cheap food.. free acc for students.. the medical care.. the pirate vcds.. :) but only one thing- the road. he actually mentioned the rising car crashes in brunei- so wear ur safety belt! -_-'''
another interesting fact.. was UQ is going to make brunei an official clinical school for 3rd & 4th year med rotations. its been well known along the years.. & was receiving good reviews especially in the fields of obs/gynae and surgery. "if" i were to proceed to 3rd year, i'll definitely choose to go back for surgery rotation either in mid-year or in the end. mid-year coz its long enuf 5 months & i needed to enjoy pure brunei or.. end year coz it'd be a longer holiday for me :)
as you noticed, i purposely highlighted the word "if". there was one smiley incident.. just a day ago, i bumped onto caitlyn.. it was raining & we were heading the same direction, she wanted to share her umbrella with me. so we took the bus & chatted quite a while.. i met caitlyn thru church- she's a bruneian.. i still remember visiting her house once back in brunei for worship. she' actually graduating this sem as a pharmacist. she also has a brother who's working as a registrar at mater hospital.
she asked abt me- i guess i blurted out "if" i were to get to 3rd year, im going to RBWH (Royal Brisbane Women's Hospital).. i was allocated this hospital just a week ago. she re-iterated.. "you shud say.. when you get to 3rd year.. you will go RBH, don't say if.. must be confident.. :)" i like the way she defined her career & regarded it intuitively.. "its one of the greatest achievements in life.. especially when you graduate". it is indeed.
it is nw spring. for those of you who don't know, the highlight of spring in brisbane are the purple trees- als0 known as jacarandas. its very pretty, blooms every year in spring.. i saw this picture taken by khairul.. so im getting a copyright figure frm him ;) almost everytime in spring, i'd receive gifts.. 2 years ago, it was mei.. this year i received this postcard frm melanie! i've never seen anyone who has this nice handwriting (aside frm sharon).. its just neat & tidy.. with a bit of cursive texture. tnx mel~ i'll cya very soon :)
gigi is releasing a new album soon, i hope. it was stated in her blog.. she's released 30 over mandarin, cantonese albums.. hasn't released one this year. im anticipating it.. :) another singer i particularly adore is this one- smeone actually uploaded this clip on youtube just a few days ago- my fav.. cheer is a taiwan legend- very talented, serene voice & looks.. i told my mom earlier, i tght i saw her a few days ago in the train.. she looks so like her.. pity i'd not brought my camera.
k.. wt else.. just hope things are going well for me. enjoy life guys. going to breathe the brunei air soon.. enjoy the music frm my veteran.. especially the 2nd track wch never fails to make me smile. alrite tk.. haf a gd one ppl~ :)
- keith
October 9, 2007
October 8, 2007
FQs
to be a satisfactory 2nd year med student, you need to be able to establish clinical reasoning- approach, assess & manage the following conditions:
dermatology, immunology:
- anaphylaxis, skin lesions, rashes, lymphadenopathy, fever of unknown origin & of recent-returned traveller
cardiovascular, respiratory:
- acute onset of chest pain, shortness of breath, arrhythmias, DVT, hemoptysis, chronic respiratory disease
gastrointestinal:
- diarrhoea, acute abdominal pain, jaundice, hepatosplenomegaly, hematemesis
psychiatry:
- drug abuse, depression, anxiety, panic attack, schizophrenia
neurology:
- an unconscious patient, acute or chronic headache, epilepsy, Parkinson's disease, Alzheimer's disease, meningitis
renal:
- anuria or oliguria, hematuria, chronic kidney disease
musculoskeletal:
- bone fractures, Ca, joint hematoma, arthritis
reproduction:
- infertility, lump in the genital area (male), abnormal uterine bleeding (female), amenorrhea
endocrine:
- thyroid disease, Cushing's disease, diabetes mellitus
2nd year med is the most challenging. least for me so far. i guess not only in the aspects of studying but also in terms of dealing with your fellow colleagues, coaching drs & the school. if i were to get thru this year, i can say its a miracle. the fact is.. y life can be so slow.. the whole 1 year course ends up in an exam in a month's time.
personally, i've gone thru a bit- this year. i feel for it. things.. smetmes u never knew y or how. the world is complicated.. all i wish is just to finish this, go back home & just wish for the best.. u never knew wt things are ter in the future. u can only try to live ur best at present.
- keith
dermatology, immunology:
- anaphylaxis, skin lesions, rashes, lymphadenopathy, fever of unknown origin & of recent-returned traveller
cardiovascular, respiratory:
- acute onset of chest pain, shortness of breath, arrhythmias, DVT, hemoptysis, chronic respiratory disease
gastrointestinal:
- diarrhoea, acute abdominal pain, jaundice, hepatosplenomegaly, hematemesis
psychiatry:
- drug abuse, depression, anxiety, panic attack, schizophrenia
neurology:
- an unconscious patient, acute or chronic headache, epilepsy, Parkinson's disease, Alzheimer's disease, meningitis
renal:
- anuria or oliguria, hematuria, chronic kidney disease
musculoskeletal:
- bone fractures, Ca, joint hematoma, arthritis
reproduction:
- infertility, lump in the genital area (male), abnormal uterine bleeding (female), amenorrhea
endocrine:
- thyroid disease, Cushing's disease, diabetes mellitus
2nd year med is the most challenging. least for me so far. i guess not only in the aspects of studying but also in terms of dealing with your fellow colleagues, coaching drs & the school. if i were to get thru this year, i can say its a miracle. the fact is.. y life can be so slow.. the whole 1 year course ends up in an exam in a month's time.
personally, i've gone thru a bit- this year. i feel for it. things.. smetmes u never knew y or how. the world is complicated.. all i wish is just to finish this, go back home & just wish for the best.. u never knew wt things are ter in the future. u can only try to live ur best at present.
- keith
October 6, 2007
39
yest as i was resting, i took time to reminisce
life.. times past.. hw immense this yr it has been.
many tngs.. yet inexplicable.. wch can be quite an
impact to one's life.
for most of it, its being 22. at tis age, cudn more deny its an age of finding self. for me, it was chosen to be solitary, full of persistence to move on tt way.
for other most, is facing anxiety.. i bliv the feeling is a learned response (in psychology). i often make unreasonably fearful anticipation on someone's presence or a group of others especially when walking ard uni or st. lucia on sundays wch can be quite demeaning..
fuff.. last time i remembered those times used to be harmony. church, frens. nw its as if im fearing them. very unreasonable. tts y im beginning to think ters smethn wrong. i kept 'avoiding'. i remember barring myself frm them, frm her.. just bcoz everytime i see her, she drives me unnecessarily palpitations and fear.
i dunno. its so autonomous. i've said this times. worse, its really irrational and its been so long. on the positives, i kept reminding.. kept instilling self cbt.
"in fact i've already let go personally.. smehw.. autonomously it still happens. in my mind, i've always wanted to keep a peaceful relationship. tts y i chose this way. so times when we meet, we can still exchange smooth glances.
wen i think bck, its alwez unsolveable, neverending.. i can alwez attribute it to our differences, of the acts we'd previously done to each other. but nw tts not the matter, nor forgiveness is. matter is now facing u with a peaceful heart. here let me mention once more.. angelene. forgive me. i bliv one day we will come into peaceful terms."
i feel better nw.. i'll go with a heart to finish the exams.
- keith
life.. times past.. hw immense this yr it has been.
many tngs.. yet inexplicable.. wch can be quite an
impact to one's life.
for most of it, its being 22. at tis age, cudn more deny its an age of finding self. for me, it was chosen to be solitary, full of persistence to move on tt way.
for other most, is facing anxiety.. i bliv the feeling is a learned response (in psychology). i often make unreasonably fearful anticipation on someone's presence or a group of others especially when walking ard uni or st. lucia on sundays wch can be quite demeaning..
fuff.. last time i remembered those times used to be harmony. church, frens. nw its as if im fearing them. very unreasonable. tts y im beginning to think ters smethn wrong. i kept 'avoiding'. i remember barring myself frm them, frm her.. just bcoz everytime i see her, she drives me unnecessarily palpitations and fear.
i dunno. its so autonomous. i've said this times. worse, its really irrational and its been so long. on the positives, i kept reminding.. kept instilling self cbt.
"in fact i've already let go personally.. smehw.. autonomously it still happens. in my mind, i've always wanted to keep a peaceful relationship. tts y i chose this way. so times when we meet, we can still exchange smooth glances.
wen i think bck, its alwez unsolveable, neverending.. i can alwez attribute it to our differences, of the acts we'd previously done to each other. but nw tts not the matter, nor forgiveness is. matter is now facing u with a peaceful heart. here let me mention once more.. angelene. forgive me. i bliv one day we will come into peaceful terms."
i feel better nw.. i'll go with a heart to finish the exams.
- keith
October 4, 2007
38
when i go back home, i want to make a reminisced post of my own psyche.. rested.. appreciating the needless demands life has put behind.. and yet so soon, i'll make use of it fully, putting on demands life would give to make it fulfulling as ever for nw and then...
- keith
- keith
September 29, 2007
September 28, 2007
September 26, 2007
pill
just, came back frm a sungkai dinner at a fren's place. it was packed, many food. lots of gd food. its actually an event organised by bris-bne society. we've a good social group here. very close in fact, non-racial, very very.. special :) im qte popular ter smehw.. so nw, whilst they're praying, i went back to damit's place & settle down alone.. have some time for myself for a while.
i appreciate thomas. u knw.. until nw, he's a caring fren who deserves to be my bestman one day. evrytime when i talk to him, we'll share the vast things abt life.. asking each other "how's things going". like just moments ago, he'd share.. just the tght u knw we're comfortable, ter's noth wch seems to be a hindrance in terms of our frenship so yea.. just wna say its been years. u've been ter. i say tnx.
recently, b4 anything this week, i've been thinking abt sme ppl. smetmes.. along the road when i do, i'd tell myself.. regardless of hw things may be, i look forward. i tell myself.. for the things i've let go, i had & i will. i knw one day.. all it matters is you trying to fight for life.. do ur own thing.. & tt all the waste will definitely avert away. but here for the last, i'd just want to give it away. i knw its worth it. i miss you my fren. you're cute. so sorry.. but i've gone.
hah.. its sad isn't it.. i'm actually really working myself thru these exams.. & of coz as a mention def, i'll meet my frens back home. actually i've met new frens along the way- i may meet soon. melanie.. a food expert. yan shiang.. a mozzie charmer. so yea, anticipating to meet you guys soon :)
i just wna pray for my aunt who's life is currently under threat by lymphoma. she's been critical, low in platelets thse few days & CV compromise. altgh it seemed as if its a matter of days.. i really hope i cud make it just in time to meet her. she's been really sick.
another thing. i dunno y im qte emotional nwdays. one day whilst i was walking along the pathway of my working hospital, i saw a middle-aged (40s) man feeding his elderly mother with subway sandwich. she appears paresthetic- the man puts a plastic bag, covering her neck like a napkin you'd put on a baby whilst eating porridge. at the sight, my heart went deep & i released a drip of tears. o my.. really touching it is.
ok.. i think tts it. its feel for this post. you tk` & just haf a gd weekend ppl :) you're all worth it.
love,
keith
September 23, 2007
35
live-in
i was heading for a nap but its 8pm already.. after 2.5 hrs on the phone. buggered.. letharged.. soon to bed.
year 4
i was heading for a nap but its 8pm already.. after 2.5 hrs on the phone. buggered.. letharged.. soon to bed.
i had a long talk with mom. ard an hr or so. heart talk.. wch generally came abt myself. bugged abt hardships.. stress.. cud only let it out to her as i had no one else to. i think its the first time i've ever let out academic issues to my parents tis yr. knwing tt most i cud handle, nor i seldom even let out personal problems or talk abt it with my family. i tght i rather had it within me and resolve it. but it was a bit too much tis time.
aft tt i talked with ys. an hr or so. its been long.. we laughed out so loud during the whole converse. missing the times of chat and laughs, the call ended without credit.
aft all tt, i felt different. it reflected hw well i am deprived of all tse. in this all' lonely world. i had also time to reminisce b4hand.. b4 conversing with mom and ys. if i had the chance to go to next yr, ter wud be a change. emm.. tis sem has a slight downfall. proly due to a few mixed pieces here and ter, life's bulging down.. so in next yr, i wud be moving out of indoroo for a new start. wna exp a new place after 2 years. plus a cheaper plce so i wud haf more money to spend on books and food.
im lacking social touch. lacking few frens. im seeing a few resolutions. proly to make things-life a bit better. but i'll see how. gna build up my physicals.. gna involve smethn. we shall see..
ok.. a few memoirs/influences to end tis post- 35.. b4 i had to go off last on this huge exam. wish me luck guys, if u care.. for nw, live-in.
year 1
year 2
year 3
year 4long journey ahead... - keith
September 14, 2007
34
我已经想通了
used this day for exercise.. after 2 hrs to city and back, mind becomes clearer. during it, i tght many things..
realised life can be unjust.. occasionally while wandering ard in a normal day, wud see things that are not of favor or things typically leaving an unsettled heart. then I asked, ‘yao ho pit le?’
many times, will think of unjust.. will often back to negative modalities.. BUT.. start to think.. so many things in this world.. so many things.. best to see the beauty side of it.
I decided life nw is limited.. my decision.. I decided I cud not go back to the times.. coz im not meant to be.. so many ppl in this world, I admit not all of them are destined to be in goodness together. I may meet hundreds of acquaintances, only to find one special friend. so as well as I admit, many things in the past.. is no under our control.. yet best is to find a way to get around it.. think the beauty side of it.
past is beautiful.. many things once beautiful, now has become ugly, can still be beautiful.. because each of these added wouldn’t become the me today without them. wudn’t find the meaning of who I am without them..
I typically tght how once I kept expecting.. frm ppl.. frm life.. wch cant be given.. n one thing u cud do.. either change the world or change ur thinking.. then.. changing thinking is more feasible. for all things happened, its okay.. just say.. its okay…
for all I can say, life is a complicated matter. but to go forth, one should learn to appreciate.. during times of hardship. smetmes need to keep reminding. learn the positive way of it, whilst living the life long ahead.. coz ter are many things still beautiful yet we’re to discover.
im waiting..
- to be proud of myself agn in grad
- to be a competent dr.
- be in empire resort.. enjoying evening nature
- go on stage and sing a 1st good song
- meet my best fren frm m'sia
- meet someone..
so now since I know what I want.. like gee said, "no matter if the whole world hates you, never hate yourself.."
- keith
used this day for exercise.. after 2 hrs to city and back, mind becomes clearer. during it, i tght many things..
realised life can be unjust.. occasionally while wandering ard in a normal day, wud see things that are not of favor or things typically leaving an unsettled heart. then I asked, ‘yao ho pit le?’
many times, will think of unjust.. will often back to negative modalities.. BUT.. start to think.. so many things in this world.. so many things.. best to see the beauty side of it.
I decided life nw is limited.. my decision.. I decided I cud not go back to the times.. coz im not meant to be.. so many ppl in this world, I admit not all of them are destined to be in goodness together. I may meet hundreds of acquaintances, only to find one special friend. so as well as I admit, many things in the past.. is no under our control.. yet best is to find a way to get around it.. think the beauty side of it.
past is beautiful.. many things once beautiful, now has become ugly, can still be beautiful.. because each of these added wouldn’t become the me today without them. wudn’t find the meaning of who I am without them..
I typically tght how once I kept expecting.. frm ppl.. frm life.. wch cant be given.. n one thing u cud do.. either change the world or change ur thinking.. then.. changing thinking is more feasible. for all things happened, its okay.. just say.. its okay…
for all I can say, life is a complicated matter. but to go forth, one should learn to appreciate.. during times of hardship. smetmes need to keep reminding. learn the positive way of it, whilst living the life long ahead.. coz ter are many things still beautiful yet we’re to discover.
im waiting..
- to be proud of myself agn in grad
- to be a competent dr.
- be in empire resort.. enjoying evening nature
- go on stage and sing a 1st good song
- meet my best fren frm m'sia
- meet someone..
so now since I know what I want.. like gee said, "no matter if the whole world hates you, never hate yourself.."
- keith
September 12, 2007
33
小步舞曲
wow.. its really not easy.. challenging.. drained.. anxious.. stress.. other negative modalities~
today.. i just want to rest.. -_- its too tough for me. i'll have a tea-break today, a cake and a cup of chocolate in the city. i'll wander around..
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these days is as if i regret smething.. often comes back to me.. those tngs.. as if u hope u cud do smethn.. as if u hope tngs weren't how it had been. wt spoiler.
i kept on so often.. so the saying - get over it. live on. but its alwez me.. to alwez realise tngs are still.. yet on the pillar.
i am stressed. i probably wudn feel this way w.o my current workload. i alwez have to remind myself times again & again. ter are so many tngs in life waiting for u. u still've got so much time..
i regretted tt we didn't get to knw each other. i regretted tngs spoilt our chance to knw each other, not even close to frens. i regretted our bond is nw scarred and awkward.
smetmes.. really its not abt u like me, and i dun like u so tts it. smetmes.. its abt time and effort in really getting to knw smeone.. at once, you can alwez have a good impression on a person. but to really think u liked a person, it alwez takes smethn. an interaction. and i regretted it didn't happen for us.
anywy.. time to knw.. i'll alwez be looking forward. n each exp is alwez a block-building step for each of us. i bliv i'll let go one day.. of the tngs i'd 'let go'. n still it all comes back to this song- 小步舞曲
- keith
wow.. its really not easy.. challenging.. drained.. anxious.. stress.. other negative modalities~
today.. i just want to rest.. -_- its too tough for me. i'll have a tea-break today, a cake and a cup of chocolate in the city. i'll wander around..
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these days is as if i regret smething.. often comes back to me.. those tngs.. as if u hope u cud do smethn.. as if u hope tngs weren't how it had been. wt spoiler.
i kept on so often.. so the saying - get over it. live on. but its alwez me.. to alwez realise tngs are still.. yet on the pillar.
i am stressed. i probably wudn feel this way w.o my current workload. i alwez have to remind myself times again & again. ter are so many tngs in life waiting for u. u still've got so much time..
i regretted tt we didn't get to knw each other. i regretted tngs spoilt our chance to knw each other, not even close to frens. i regretted our bond is nw scarred and awkward.
smetmes.. really its not abt u like me, and i dun like u so tts it. smetmes.. its abt time and effort in really getting to knw smeone.. at once, you can alwez have a good impression on a person. but to really think u liked a person, it alwez takes smethn. an interaction. and i regretted it didn't happen for us.
anywy.. time to knw.. i'll alwez be looking forward. n each exp is alwez a block-building step for each of us. i bliv i'll let go one day.. of the tngs i'd 'let go'. n still it all comes back to this song- 小步舞曲
- keith
September 6, 2007
September 2, 2007
30
post 30
do you bliv nature or God plays a part as such, an experience meeting certain ones aseemed 'coincidental fate', for a certain period of time for no particular reason? as if nature wants to bring an involvement, either good or bad, a life event between two ones.
like hw its happening. i've bumped into this korean girl many times nw. shes the one frm festival. saw her in the mall, indooroopilly library, bus station with her family, uq law library several times.. its not just seeing frm afar but more like passing by. interestingly, its strange to think hw a person of interest can appear more often than anyone else, as if to expect smethn's gonna happen. not smethn literally, but smethn in actual sense.
when 2 people meet, its reasonable enough to register an element of fate between each one. like as if God plans it. u get to meet. in it, ters a mindset of hw one views upon the other generally and emotionally. and seemingly, an involvement between each a particular life scenario, wch smetmes can be quite dramatic..
the past had me tt way. yea.. its long gone. anywy.. i hope nothing of tt happens. i'd just live a simple life for nw. & this time i just want to work for the next 2 months gradually.. rest and go back home. i'll make use of ur spirit to do this again, my fren.
- keith
do you bliv nature or God plays a part as such, an experience meeting certain ones aseemed 'coincidental fate', for a certain period of time for no particular reason? as if nature wants to bring an involvement, either good or bad, a life event between two ones.
like hw its happening. i've bumped into this korean girl many times nw. shes the one frm festival. saw her in the mall, indooroopilly library, bus station with her family, uq law library several times.. its not just seeing frm afar but more like passing by. interestingly, its strange to think hw a person of interest can appear more often than anyone else, as if to expect smethn's gonna happen. not smethn literally, but smethn in actual sense.
when 2 people meet, its reasonable enough to register an element of fate between each one. like as if God plans it. u get to meet. in it, ters a mindset of hw one views upon the other generally and emotionally. and seemingly, an involvement between each a particular life scenario, wch smetmes can be quite dramatic..
the past had me tt way. yea.. its long gone. anywy.. i hope nothing of tt happens. i'd just live a simple life for nw. & this time i just want to work for the next 2 months gradually.. rest and go back home. i'll make use of ur spirit to do this again, my fren.
- keith
September 1, 2007
29
(refined)
i realise songs do play a huge role in setting up ur mood.. normally whilst expressing, i'd cont to play a song wch generally comes frm my blog of one of my favs. i decided to switch to typical 小步舞曲 coz prev gigi's song caught me too emotionally to even write things down especially when i need to make a positive point on life, or i had to..
ppl'd realise i've been going on a lubricious phase of life lately especially the recent few weeks. yes indeed i had. its not easy living again i admit. nw.. i hope the point of creating this post today wud be worthwhile in part for me personally to let it out as well as to refine a resolution to get by the next few weeks of intensity.
life's tough 'a bit'. i admit. generally, i'd come by for a while, immerse into it and swiftly pick myself up agn at its usual sense. u knw.. being in an academic position im in is not easy. nt only tt. being a person living a life at age of 22 and finding ur sense of life is also not clear-cut. i.. feel im quite deprived to certain tngs. it came to my realisation so clearly when national events came up and ppl wud strt asking.. 'u going to the river festival?' or 'u going to ekka?' and i ask myself.. 'where are my frens to go with?'
its simple indeed and straight-forward. ans is im not caught up to have frens coz i cant spend time with them owing to the lovely life im putting up with. more came to me when i knew its not as legitimate as it seems. its nt just act of preserving time itself, but smethn always kept on my mind tt i still think its best to be like this for nw and then.
'switched to gigi's song and hear for moments.. i hah truly cudn't put my keyboard words down.. time to change'.. 小步舞曲 again.
i wanted to go back. alwez in my mind, i waited for tt moment. 'go back meaning return to the place, being comfortable and peaceful in heart itself. but not devoting.'
i abide this solitude coz i knw its for the best tgh its hard. coz i knw if i do go back, i'll never feel right as long as a figure appears. i'll never knw wt worse cud i put up with and bring such perplexing moments between us, tgh frenship is once i so wished. nw, its always abt moving on. tts why i chose this way. i'd wish sincerely u move on too, whilst we lead on diff paths.
next topic. man.. i have '6' more weeks to get it done. the whole one year course ends in 6 weeks. fuff.. its quite challenging atm. concomitantly, im putting up with this disposition but as always for these whole 3-4 years, it happens b4 the exam. i'll 'try'. tts the only word i can promise. the rest is up to 'fate' whether i get thru or not to 2nd year~ 'switch to gee agn'
- keith
i realise songs do play a huge role in setting up ur mood.. normally whilst expressing, i'd cont to play a song wch generally comes frm my blog of one of my favs. i decided to switch to typical 小步舞曲 coz prev gigi's song caught me too emotionally to even write things down especially when i need to make a positive point on life, or i had to..
ppl'd realise i've been going on a lubricious phase of life lately especially the recent few weeks. yes indeed i had. its not easy living again i admit. nw.. i hope the point of creating this post today wud be worthwhile in part for me personally to let it out as well as to refine a resolution to get by the next few weeks of intensity.
life's tough 'a bit'. i admit. generally, i'd come by for a while, immerse into it and swiftly pick myself up agn at its usual sense. u knw.. being in an academic position im in is not easy. nt only tt. being a person living a life at age of 22 and finding ur sense of life is also not clear-cut. i.. feel im quite deprived to certain tngs. it came to my realisation so clearly when national events came up and ppl wud strt asking.. 'u going to the river festival?' or 'u going to ekka?' and i ask myself.. 'where are my frens to go with?'
its simple indeed and straight-forward. ans is im not caught up to have frens coz i cant spend time with them owing to the lovely life im putting up with. more came to me when i knew its not as legitimate as it seems. its nt just act of preserving time itself, but smethn always kept on my mind tt i still think its best to be like this for nw and then.
'switched to gigi's song and hear for moments.. i hah truly cudn't put my keyboard words down.. time to change'.. 小步舞曲 again.
i wanted to go back. alwez in my mind, i waited for tt moment. 'go back meaning return to the place, being comfortable and peaceful in heart itself. but not devoting.'
i abide this solitude coz i knw its for the best tgh its hard. coz i knw if i do go back, i'll never feel right as long as a figure appears. i'll never knw wt worse cud i put up with and bring such perplexing moments between us, tgh frenship is once i so wished. nw, its always abt moving on. tts why i chose this way. i'd wish sincerely u move on too, whilst we lead on diff paths.
next topic. man.. i have '6' more weeks to get it done. the whole one year course ends in 6 weeks. fuff.. its quite challenging atm. concomitantly, im putting up with this disposition but as always for these whole 3-4 years, it happens b4 the exam. i'll 'try'. tts the only word i can promise. the rest is up to 'fate' whether i get thru or not to 2nd year~ 'switch to gee agn'
- keith
August 26, 2007
27-28
暂时站停..
停在巴黎线..
present cheer~
earlier.. i felt as tgh i wnt tngs to stop for while
and head to paris like tis song
earlier.. i crapped a bit
writing none matter nor meaning
as tgh i knew life so well
nw.. i wish to go to dreams
and life is all tt
i'll live thru
i promise..
till the very end
- keith
停在巴黎线..
present cheer~
earlier.. i felt as tgh i wnt tngs to stop for while
and head to paris like tis song
earlier.. i crapped a bit
writing none matter nor meaning
as tgh i knew life so well
nw.. i wish to go to dreams
and life is all tt
i'll live thru
i promise..
till the very end
- keith
August 11, 2007
26
(no.26)
post 26 was random. wasnt suppose to be here.
probably then, i was feeling too mch. thinking too mch.
nw a rewrite of 26
isnt gigi lovely? haha. i'd like to meet her once :)
err.. i hadn't had a real break, but just yesterday.
its just too mch. too mch tt im finding it hard to plan.
everyday, i'd pursue lively.. learning one, learning next.
eventually leaving behind it.. then another comes.
hw to plan.. :s
i tght abt emotions. maybe life's direction.
tts y probably ters my senseless poem.
is it abt living? and just living..
and i tght yes.. maybe its just yes.
i miss life. i miss tse days. nt subdued well to changes.
i jst tght maybe i shud keep an open-mind agn.
jst move on. despite wt happened..
i won't miss a life.
-keith
August 8, 2007
August 7, 2007
24
i'll dedicate this post to BoA. i remember the 1st time i picked up her cd was when i was in 1st yr of university. it was 'My Name'. as i listened, i can pretty much be an adolescent cherishing funky beats of the piece, at same time confine to the melodies of sentiment BoA can bring by her unparalleled voice. 'My Prayer' also in the album brings a lot of meaning to me during the past years of uni.One particular MV 'Shine We Are' depicted very much of BoA's exuberant outlook, one of the traits wch make BoA popular among fans. the youtube below shows it all. i just hope she conts to bring smiles to everyone. cheer, gigi next~
