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of all tse while since i left, she has never initiated a qn, a mail or feedback on us. of all tse while i just longed for frenship, a natural frenship. if i want to talk a million tngs y im not satis with how she handled the past, i cud. but i'd let go. i've forgiven the losses.

its this feeling tt u just wish she'd talk to you agn. care u in a way, as frens. so apparently, so apparently.. she seems to've let go. qn is.. let go of the past or the person(fren)?

i'd let go. but y on earth did i buy a gift. y on earth was i placed in indooroopilly mall on the nite of her b'day, given a million reasons i had to feel for her and buy her a gift. the hurt she's caused & nw bearing the risk of yet anther hurt. y does she fail to realise the imprnce of feedback? y does she fail to realise hw imprtnt it is to say i've received it & tq. y..

im very glad u're enjoying well. im also glad tt u've let go of a few past tenses. u rule. i don't. it will not take long to knw.. i already expected. if u remembered march last year, u were one of the many persons who supported me in this ordeal. she was a bit annoyed with the talk. after all, i always tght i wasn't anyth to her at all.

last wait is on 30th june. after tt, i knw, its enuf.. i've yearned for peace. if its nt given, i knw i will move on easily.

- to leeshi

sz

actually i'll just a write an entry..
i had a chat with thomas just nw. we had a bit of exchange of feels as frens. i guess for him he had only me as a best fren.. and as for me, i really missed him. u knw.. life here in brisbane.. u just can't find the type who meddles in the way u wanted.. its such lifeless.. and i guess home is always the place for welcome n warmth

if i were to write in the case of this "present time", i guess i'd miss only two frens. one is abhi and one is thomas. i think the reason of hw harsh life is in brisbane, has let me to think.. i've let go the rest. i guess in my respect, genuine frens are the ones who'd ask abt u.. think abt u.. treat u as a fren basically, in the respect of exchange of love and warmth. smeone who cares and.. i just miss tt

i admit the harshness of hw some can be.. especially female frens.. knowingly judging frenships wrt the opp sex.. i also knw tt- i just wanted to knw.. hw some.. have tght abt me.. at all? regardless of tse fights.. conflicts.. i just want to have a peaceful heart to knw.. tt u'd care.. despite the difference we had to be.. giving me the feedback "hw you are".. "hw're you doing"..

aside tt, i just miss life..
i miss everything..
frm the past & present..
i'll go ahead with my career..
with life changing frm end to end.

hw i've envied some with ones..
to care and to forgo with them..
each & everytime of the day..
as for i.. turning 23 soon..
hw well can i cope w/o love.

i've been scarred.
but im getting on well..
i'm tough.
but im striving..
its the feeling you feel at the end of the day..
hw much misses you can feel for the ones
you've lost.. who've let go..
who stopped caring you anyway.

i hope you enjoy this song.
faithful by gee.. tk ppl..
- keith

winter

24.5
its been a long time no update. sorry if it even affects anyone a bit, but i myself hadn't had a glance of my page for a month. i put it on abstinence.. took a break for a while.. & see if it does matter. i guess my blog isn't such a big deal afterall except proly'd bored sharon a bit. i missed blog. the life without blog has been very different. i'll elaborate.

i glanced towards the outside of my window, and found its winter. its now 25th may, 08. brisbane has accompanied me for 3 years.. 3 years. i questioned myself hw long will i have to stay here agn. its cold, im not getting the grip of life very well here, but all i'd ever do it for is medicine. brunei is my home, regardless hw well i shud settle here. i longed for warmth.

im abt to be 23. i looked at myself.. still slim.. still not fully established (yet). strangely when i look ard & compare to myself, i see most adults of my age wearing nice tidy formal cloth, fine physically built with app hairstyle and shoes, enjoying active lifestyle whilst me.. at the age of 23, still sublimed to my famous shirt-in jacket, khakis and sandals. im sad to say i haven't pulled out an expectation on myself to be more 'good-looking', more 'adult'.. & when i walk ard with my old clothes, i just had in mind.. im just a lame med student.

i spent time with seniors had a talk with them. instantaneously, i found out tt 3rd 4th years are just as tiring (aint not just 2nd year). so i pulled a cloth on myself.. laughed out softly.. went back home.. tght abt it. ok.. 'its a life-long thing'.. bring myself up.. ok lets do this.

next- life is always changing.. if you don't change, you'll be left behind.. new things .. motives keep on changing.. relationships change.. life then goes on.. and on.. and on.. until eventually you ask yourself.. "y.. y.. y..." despite, you moved on to pursue life to the very best, for this point, you realised life is always abt oneself.

run out of love. run out of luck. i nearly lost blog. but i wanted to feel for myself again. i won't be blogging until aft exams.. wish me luck in 2 weeks time.. i'll only be longing for the self the smiles when i graduated. not anyone else. but just myself.

- keith

204

20.4 update
life is still solemn. yet not. sitting along in uq cafe this morn, a live guitarist playing soothing music while singing melody. relaxing. this wed carpet cleaning for my room. concomitantly on janet's bday. will be clean dustless soon. makan hse at west end. eating with mates is such fun. reminded me of home. swimming is tiring. staying over is too. time to return to books. not feeling for the moment.
- keith

amb

on ambiance
tse days i've been doing well so far. getting into stance on both life & work. this career is vital as it is interesting. evryday, im reminded to do some work even if ter isn't a plan. work least to make me bit competent. i walked alone but never tght i was. coz i learnt to appreciate chance i've got.

i feel. im human too. 2day shallen called. she moaned of her stay with her new mates & wanted to move out. it a pity with the issues she had. all i cud do was ask her get help from janet. hope she'll be fine. missed her 'bubbliness' at home.

once in a while i'd feel for ppl. i tght of someone. a fren, a really gd fren. miss the days when we're in the same course. she'd be funny, teasing & just lovely. even as frm her recent quote, i'd want to reply her and say, "love hk.. love hk.. i love hk!!" i tght y i had reacted badly then. she's a fren. she shud be as happy as it is with both of us. we shud be good frens :)

feelings are sensitive issues, but they can be anything positive. the point is "feelings you feel for ppl are unique and they should be dealt with both sides maturely". its very imprnt tt you have feedback frm both sides so you dun get the feeling this relationship (frenship) is going to end. most often things dun turn out tt way. its always a close end, ended with hurt.

ambiance for you (3)

- keith

新始

(edited)
I don’t knw how to start
一路来, 我都以为 keith 是一个很乖 很诚的小孩子
可是我错了.. 这么能够做了那么 出格的事

在很懆脆的情况下, 为了麻自己 ..
不离不弃的.. 做了对自己蛮失望的事

I’ve tried my best to live
我已经蛮 努力了.. 既然能够 生存在这个世界上
这么还是感到不滿, 我真的不是人

我会爬 我会走, 恐怕我也会跌
当我跌时候, 我真的很想其一些人
偶尔会问 ‘how are you?’
他们不见了..

却觉得生活 是蛮孤独吗?
还是人生就是会为了人, 伤害自己
I tried never to think abt it
拥有你 coz you’re my fren
可是我蛮迷你得

犯的错不是说很大
而其实 能给一个机会 反省自己
对自己更加的爱

最后所 梁咏琪讲的..
'爱情是一个归属感'
trust me, i’ll do my best
I’ll feel naturally

- keith

4

when i looked back, i realised i've gone thru 4-5 years of tough times. uni years.. are hard but you are taught to live. when i tght back, i noticed change in each step. i'm very different frm hw i was 4 years ago.

i learnt to live. many times, i'd come across things tt are hard for me. things tt cudn't be solved, its heart-breaking. when this happens, i'd tumble for a while.. with support, slowly pick myself up and fight back the feelings. ter's no other way. once it happens, u just gotta let go..

frm tse times, i learnt the most important thing is to love yourself. always remain positive, cont to build urself up despite things tt aren't going ard well for you. always bless the other person in ur heart, despite feelings tt are so unhelpable. coz u knw one day, u guys will be smiling to each other again.. who knws even sitting down, chatting along.

regardless, hw things may be. its always a decision to let go. i've let go many times and i did not regret. i wudn't mourn repetitively coz its useless. i just knw we've to make use of our life, while we still can.. being joyful, being blessed.. bcoz things like tt aren't always there. we have to stand up for ourselves.

you're the 4th influential. you held ur hands on my shoulders just like the 3 others. i've always told myself to keep you as a fren, no matter wt. when i held disappoinment, i decided to let go. i cud never guess hw you are sincere to me, nor cud i understand some of the things u did smetmes. nevertheless, i just want time to heal.. im sure things will be good soon.

i believe one day, we will meet.. to me, this one is a very small problem compared to the last 3. we will meet.. and definitely, we will be in sizzler again :)

- keith

慢歌3

放假生活

在這此天都是玩到很累 的.
放假时候, 唯一一个东西能跟朋友一起享受的是游戏
还有足球.. 搾不多 4am 是我的睡觉錶.. 能够 12pm扒起来已经够好了..
还是觉得缺少精神。

三天前去了溜冰.. 是蛮不错.. 除了跌了几下, 更被冰冻到.. 还是一个好汉.. 其他时间就是.. 暗睡觉, 晚起身.. 就会问问自己.. 现在到底要做甚么.. 真实充满的 slack..

个人生活

坐在咖啡店, 听着音乐, 和喝着美好的 ice mocha.. 其实是蛮享受的. 个人生活.. 有不同的享受.. 也许放假是一个机会.. 不怕时间过的久, 没工作的烦恼, 就这样呆在一边相偎相依.. 有一次在 southbank parklands 的午天, 为着一棵树,就在那边看人看景.. 很轻松的..怀念生活..

人身理由

生 活孤独也好疯狂也好.. 人身意义是哪里表现出来的? 是享受吗.. 爱情? 还是自己? 其实享受是好事.. 但是不必太多.. 相我现在有少少不对劲.. 可能一路来生活都是很认真.. 如果在事业上, 可怕退步一点就很容易退出火线.. 所以现在希望能慢慢站起来.. 回去正确的.. 认真的生活..

朋友

对我来讲, 朋友最重要一点是能够对彼此的尊重.. 在我心里中, 能够当成的朋友是却不多.. 其实对某些人很失望，可是已经放开了.. 没必要对彼此强求。

愿望

其 实一个人生活可不说很差.. 也许孤独可以是一个自由.. 偶尔.. 能够为自己做出某些的表现.. 今年已经进步了.. 生活比去年好.. 不会什么负面去想不快乐的旋律.. 可是工作方面还是要多用功.. 在这里希望为自己也为了家人.. 度过好的生活.. 也作我应该做的东西..

composed- keith
translate- luka

- 28.03.08

blue

blue- is my colour. went for a swim in uq pool and spa.

swimming = my life~

take a shot b4 i cut my hair.

i love my hair~

i.s.

if gigi leung can do it, i can do it! haha.. god...tnx damit tt i had the chance to try my first ice-skating~ i anticipated being a first timer already.. 'd be like falling 1000s of times.. AND its really terrible.. BUT no.. it was great.. HAhaHahA...

i think it was coz i was guided by 3 gorgeous girls aside me, hanging onto them as i drifted along the icy floor. nurul, farah, yil helped me.. w.o. them it wudn't be fun at all. i cud not stabilize myself.. tripped a dozen times.. LOL.. the funniest part is im so willing to go out ter & try all i can.. dropping myself so many times..

p.s. probably u can see hw much i enjoyed by the size of my mandible haha.. brr.. the ice is cold. good shot this one taken when we all tripped.. least i can see life is..not tt bad...least i've a good one this easter. alrite time to go.. gna stay over at damit's to watch two big football matches.. :) cya guys~

-keith

case

74 yr old, low-level hostel resident, female

Bckgrd history

Diabetes mellitus dx 2000

Osteoarthritis of bilateral ankles, knees, hip

Breast Ca dx 2000 treated by mastectomy

Bladder Ca dx 1998 treated by CBG

?IHD allegedly reported by dr, not personally known

PC

Admitted to hospital due to the need for amputation of all phalanges of (L) leg and 2 phalanges of (R) leg, as a consequence of diabetes. After surgery during hospital stay, was investigated to found to have metastatic Ca involving the bone, she isn’t sure which bone (as reported by pt).

Personal feedback

Presentation was generally out of range, here & there. alth i presented throughly in some parts, i missed out some vital parts, but lucky with prompting. I hope the examiners take into account the complexity of the case, but purely unlucky also the disorganisation of my present. (long case- 25%, short case (each)- 25%, consultant assessment- 25%)

Scenario

Qn- wts the presenting complaint? there must be an issue that requires the pt to be admitted, not just purely diabetes. did you ask why she was admitted?

(this is the vital part i’ve missed, mainly focusing on the Bone cancer. I back-up by saying diabetes was the primary reason she attribute her surgery to, definitely this is a very important part of history wch shud be asked but unfortunately i did not)

Qn- what do you think is the issue with her leg that needs to be amputated?

Can be due to diabetes.. an ulcer.. apart from diabetes? she might have an infection like cellulitis does cellulitis require amputation you think? no actually.. it can be treated with antibiotics. Im thinking of the sort of tissue infection wch can eat up your tissues- a necrotising-type. okay do you know the terminology for that one? (i knew i was going the right way but..) sorry i don’t know.

Qn- you said she’s got Bone Ca.why do you think where the source may be from.

A typical metastatic source of bone Ca would be the breast. Alth she had mastectomy, Ca wud have already lurked into the bloodstream & spreaded.

Qn- Can you tell us wt medications she’s on

(i missed this one)

Qn- She’s on thyroxine, do you know why she’s on this?

I actually asked her while reviewing the charts, but she denied any explanation given coz she has already got so many co-morbidities. why do you think she may be on? did she have any thyroidectomy scar on her neck? no, she did not have any scar, i’d examined her neck. the possibilities maybe a thyroid adenoma or diffuse hyperplasia of thyroid gland. besides thyroidectomy, what other reasons you think she wud be on it? i couldn’t think of any.

Qn- the pt may be confused abt her condition. given her real condition is a pathological abdominal lymphadenopathy, how would this affect your approach?

what! so she doesn’t have bone Ca! oh my god.. i did notice a lymphadenopathy in her right inguinal region but did not present coz my notes were all over! And i did not focus on doing the abdominal exam very well.

Ok.. i’d think of lymphoma coz it can affect the abdomen. i did examine the lymph nodes & found to have an enlarged lymph node. ok.. why did you not tell us that you’ve examined the lymph nodes? sorry, i forgot to tell.

In the end, its not so bad. it was a complex case, not clear-cut. i answered some qns relatively well. always kept on backing myself up. my other 2 short cases were:

Pt presenting with fever, jaundice, abdominal pain. generally, i elicited involuntary guarding (rigidity) all over the abdomen. giving generalised peritonitis as one of my reasons, but i basically ruled this one by saying anyone presenting with the triad should be ruled out for acute cholangitis until proven otherwise (i could see the examiner tick)

Examine this pt with tachycardia. apparently on examination, a huge clicking sound even on bedside. no murmur, but thrills over LSE. I gave the answer as a metallic valve replacement. which valve? Given its in the LSE, i’d think its pulmonic valve altgh its a less likely compared to mitral & aortic valves. so which one do you think it is? mitral valve. 50:50.

wish me luck,

keith

let the photos flickr and let these words guide you

let me tell u wts it like to be a blogger- one who maintains.. doesn't mind wasting time on carving words, pics, remns.. just to portray themselves.. on the deepest of occasions. he or she enjoys.. finds meaning in it.. with no exception it'll last each time.. with growing creativity, diversity for the nature of its readers.

let me share wts it like to be melancholic-
one noon, on a drifting vessel overlooking the clear skies, you just wished time doesn't exist. with the breeze blowing past ur face and sceneries of nature unfold along stream, there's an empty seat beside you. the music plays, you just wished to close ur eyes and let it prevail.. her head lying on ur shoulders.. just countlessly dream as long as till the day sets to dusk.

a beautiful trait it is to dream.. smetimes nt knowing why i'd provoke myself to dwell at times.. revisiting places of beauty & memoirs.. did only i coz of questioning? the life of mine.. yet.. after a while, i'd slowly crawl myself out of fantasy and indulge yet again into the realms of reality. just so tt, i'd be putting my life once again to good use.

16.3

sunday- 16.3.08

day- remn
nite- remn

诗

甚么东西是能 让人 感动得?
是 那种再 生活中给了最 美好 的回忆
一种当你想 其时候是永久的意义

today.. i generally tght about ppl.. those touched before.. and worth thinking.. friends whom you'd really knew as frens.. ppl who care.. i miss abi who'd not be coming back this sem.. my most sincere fren in brisbane.. i have less.. but its not the matter.. coz wt matters is you still have one or two..

- keith

march

as of march, 08- i'm leaving this weekend least to break, blog.. wtever u call it. its alwez fun, just had a jog 5km ahead to central, 8km back to uni. the canteen at uni decided to serve 'malaysian' food for the day, ordered chicken tomato, makes me feel like home :) i had an autopsy session at noon, can't describe it, not allowed to.. but its fascinating. you cut bodies u knw, cut tse who just died days ago..

update further on life, its cool. i remembered a year ago, smeone actually posted a meaningful phrase- "what i like abt you is what i like abt myself" with a hehehe.. at the end. wt it means is- she likes herself. 'you' being herself. based on tt, i'm also here to suggest life does rule. so regardless of tngs happening around, life's still cool as ever.

i decided to take a break 2day coz over the next few weeks, we're starting cardio. its gonna be huge.. guess currently for me, 2nd year will be the hardest. stuff is just top-load. but the feeling of enthusiasm in getting to know more keeps me on, tt is hw i survived. besides the whole abt academy, next thing probably wud be house-moving, i had a bit of ordeal on this one.

i actually signed a co-tenancy at dutton park, waiting to move in.. imagine met my new hsemates, and actually went off on a trip for furnitures on the weekend. where this is my first time to IKEA. got a bed, got to knw them, was treated lunch bla.. then.. dilemma came by when my old landlord contacted me, did a few job in securing interest, and i was straight onto signing another year with her. i cud cancel the one at dutton coz its a co-tenancy but it takes a few weeks of rent.

i remembered the day when shallen moved out just weeks ago, my hsemate, you can see her photo down a few posts back. i kept missing her, had to give her a few 1/2-hour calls just to sort things out. she's alwez cheery~ full of life. i also remembered the 1st day i moved into indooroopilly- when i had to leave away frm hurt and influentials- to live life anew. i settled in quite well. hsemates were great. brought myself up frm there.. when a new life was given.
nw i tght back. i cud do another year. its an awesome place. i looked as if i own the biggest room in brisbane. my houselord has always been the kindest to me- after the ordeal, she sent me this- (click here). i thank her for everything. nw its luca, a chinese girl from szechuan. she's also good in nature, it should do.

all in all, life is great. no much no less. just to comment on blogs. cys has one of the most serene blogs she's sculptured abt her feelings to the Lord. i added her earlier last year, thinking i'd at least not be too left out frm christianity. pill has also the best in terms of feelings, but both are quite emotional. i hope one day she'd open her blog again, (waiting yours too pascal! :))

- keith

boa

i had toohey's while to accompany my night's dinner.. when i looked myself in the mirror, i didn't know i flushed so well. it was just a small bottle. acetaldehyde dehydrogenase's not working pretty well.. haha.

came across a real beauty classic sung in a beauty env. i'd really want to listen this song with my loved one for once.. predictably in the future duh~.. i trust you'll listen this song numerous times.. trust me ;) it's such a comfort.
p.s. see BoA's finishing.. she's just naturally cute :)

some

just some minute things
haf u ever wondered in living thru a day, the things you might bring urself on? when u're bored or perhaps when u've tt nick of time when u felt like its free.. wt wud you do?

small things.. when im living thru a day, i'd normally get myself a bite of apple. the feeling of holding an apple as you get out of ur home, and walking ur way crunching the juicy meat is actually real good. its fresh. its like taking a spa session. hah..

further when i've tt nick of time, i'd go up slope to the council library to surf the net. the library also has a few comics to go by. as the cinema is just next to it, i'd sweep thru a list of movies tt might be interesting.. & actually anticipating tt im going to watch. so even if i didn't, the feeling itself is good enuf to suffice i've got a backup plan. :)

another one- walking ard/reminiscing
seems to be my life. i'd choose southbank more often. as i walk along, reminiscing 'independence' which is actually good, the feeling is as such.. there's just space to breathe & time to reflect upon things & oneself. making it all worthwhile to be true.

along the way, i'd be bring up tghts on issues. wch wt' i'll often do is resolve on my part first. to bring my heart or mind to a close, and go ard the problem in the positives. with tt, it makes living life more worthwhile as u go abt putting things in a reasonable manner.

i tght for most times, studying/working primarily occupies a major part of life. tt is y when i sit down and just look into books, i feel enuf to enjoy learning things & making use of my time well.. least for my part (im doing this for the society!)

i just feel thankful we're able to study to spend time, if not life wud be such boredom. another thing is sleep. this one is life too. do you ever realise u're moody only when u're tired? so to save urself zzz...

yea just some small minute things.. hope u guys don't fall asleep with my ramblings. time to go~
- keith

cheer

小步舞曲 (A Little Step/Minuet)
tian kong tu ran xia qi qing pen da yu
lian ren zai wu yan xia xiang wei xiang yi
yi dong wo de jiao bu qing song duo yu
ren chao yong ji wo zhu shi re de shou xin
zai ye bu yao xiang qi bu kuai le de xuan lu
hu xi zhe yi miao de kong qi

hai you duo shao hui yi cang zhe duo shao mi mi
zai wo xin li fan lai fu qu shen me jiao zuo ai qing
hai you duo shao hui yi cang zhe duo shao mi mi
zai ni xin li wo ye xu zhi shi ni xin shang de feng jing

ye wan jing jing deng zhe dian hua xiang qi
shi jian tang zai ta qu nian ji lai de xin
kong dang de fang jian wo bo fang zhe wu qu
xuan zhuan zhe yi miao de gu ji

hai you duo shao hui yi cang zhe duo shao mi mi
zai ni xin li wo ye xu shi ni qing kuai de you xi
hai you duo shao hui yi cang zhe duo shao mi mi
zai ni xin li wo ye xu zhi shi ni huan man de lian xi
yin yue xiang qi wo yi ge ren yan chu chong fu de wu qu

- keith

143

so its 14.2. whilst everyone seems to be luxuriating the notion tt 'love is in the air', i spent my day seeking solace on my own which was preferably chosen- sunset by the bank. the scene has been utterly indescribable, as always whenever i seek nature for the best view, calm mind and soul~

its 4 weeks into the term- a month. i tght to myself- another 28 weeks.. as i was strolling away, i tried not to feel too deeply. with the sunset, sentimental tunes & aura of the day itself, i could also feel.. its in the air. i observed.. fashion here seems to be.. women holding bouquets.. sweet~ i tried to get back to self.. its okay to feel a bit but im here to relax.

`

2nd year is max theoretical. so its not easy given tt i already felt it.. but its good as such u get to be all-rounded, well-equipped b4 going on to real clinical setting. i just want a real good scenery for treat after all tse.. one of the most serene ones i've seen is this one visited by gigi recently. i want to go to this place..

she's adorable huh, im glad she's enjoying it all she can. as for tt, being single has its good side im sure. not tt u'd jeez everytime when 14th feb comes if u're single. u still can enjoy & feel good all the while being you. i reminded myself the age of 22 is full of youth.. they say is the brightest of the years. so its really wise to make full use of it both in a useful & sub-useful sense :)

like hw some things tt can give a smile.. cheer has alwez been special to everyone.. her voice is angelic.. songs are mystique.. listening to them makes you fanta. just one of those ones tt can rock you!
cheer's summer concert in sg

next thing wch gives a smile for the day.
when i looked back and saw this. a bit of smile when i knw how lame she can be and it has already been a year. still no change.. still pondering upon losses.. my eng stdt.

just wna take this opportunity to thank my parents for their care all the years. shud i live well for another 3-4 years, its count on them. then i'll go back. lastly, happy valentine's day to you shee mei. even as ur blog add is not in place, i've alwez remembered it in my mind.. tk my fren. i'll make sure i won't disappoint you with my life here.

- keith

愛得起

14th feb, 09

an update.
life has been pretty busy i guess, for this med rotation. most time is taken up in the wards. i remember just yest, i spent the whole 18 hrs up from 8 in the morn till the late hours of 11.30pm for admissions. got back home at 1am & had to be in hospital the next 4 hrs.

ironically, i did not feel tired. the whole interest is driving me on. i had to take care of a pt who had seizures & multiple psychosocial comorbidities. i also got to witness a spinal tap procedure done by my med reg. being in royal brisbane really gave lots of hands on experience clinically, esp in preparing for the exams. of coz this is not w.o. self doubt on my career.

whenever i feel tired, i always relayed myself back to the fact.. its not just me who's going thru this. evryone in this world going thru different paths also face challenges. similar they had to wake up early in the mornings, get to their workplace, often get out of their comfort zones to fight thru competitions. im also reminded hw blessed i am to be put in this career, be able to make use of life to work & help ppl.

starting my ipod also gave me soothness.. the drive.. viz the voice & melody of an idol. gigi leung is a perfect e.g. of a person of growing age indulging in life's fullness. she's always kept to her values, work thru & has been persistent in her field. tgh she is turning 33, she's an inspiration & role model to me. im always reminded of hw hardworking & positive she is.

this feb she has a new film "愛得起" release date- 14th feb & upcoming new album after 2 years. i've waited so looongg.. so loong.. -_- haha..

as i go thru time, i become more bland. my feelings are subtle. i'm more independent nw. i feel.. life is nw a more personal thing. i'm keeping to my values & i knw one day, i'll see thru it. present '愛得起'.



- keith

pil

you guys must be wondering how i celebrated chinese new year's eve~
so here it goes..

last year, i spent the time with sharon. this year, i was invited by pillbo to her house for a good new year's eve dinner. b4 setting off to forest lake, wch is in zone 5, i managed to take a shot with my housemates who were also celebrating.. but reluctantly w/o me

anywys.. i bought a champagne and a couple of mangoes. waited for the bus and took a 460 to inala. it took 30 mins to reach the other end. as i arrived, pillbo was ter to fetch me. its a gd feeling meeting her, not having met her for ages.. then she said to me, 'she needs my help with the food'. then i was wondering..

oh btw, ter was just four of us- her, me, her god-brother kenneth and sister mei. it was a fab experience for cny coz i got a chance to make dumplings.. hah.. it was fab~ and while she was trying on her ox-tail soup recipe, me and her bro make dumplings.

we had a secret treat i.e. we put wasabi and see who wud get it.. XD anywys.. it was great coz she had put in a lot of effort for this dinner. the hotpot ingredients had numerous seafood, crab, balls, greens, noodles.. plus her special mushroom chicken and ox-tail soup~ yum..

ya i just had fun with them, chatting and eating all the way.. and abt the wasabi dumpling.. pillbo got it, handed it frm me by purpose ;) she persistently teased me of being a fanatic gigi fan and my '帥' name.. tts why i got my revenge.. hah.. but nvm.. tt wud bring her luck for the year.

i ended up staying till one am, finishing rice balls as the end course.. she suggested bringing me home wch is smeth very much appreciable too coz its quite far. b4 i go, i took a shot with her and her numerous guinea pigs. the one im holding here is called PaPa wch she often blogs abt, her most fav.

in the end, i realised hw a cny eve's dinner cud be even as im far away from home. wudn't it be without her.. so with tse, i end with a note. thanks for the psychologist and fren. to me, she's always the lamest girl i ever met.. but good and adorable in a way. here, also wish all of my frens and family back ter happy cny.. plse be sure to pass by a redpacket on the way.. plse~~ (",)
- keith