as time past by each day each second, im getting more feelings for the times i've had spent in uni studying. i took a jog around uni this pm with the night set out to be cool and underneath lots of stars.
students even at this hour were seen coming out of their finished nite classes, happily conversing away among each other. i miss those times of naivety when we're just starting to get a taste of reality as well as freedom of life wherein a university can offer.
fortunately, or unfortunately, my life was meant to strive. i remember every step of the way i was changing.. the experiences i met, the situations i faced & just time alone got me to a change which will never be fixed nor supposedly. from a naive lad who practically enjoys nature from the outset to an anxious being who just hopes to get to where he wants (needs) to.
for the past 6 weeks of my rehab in brunei, i realised a lot of things. my friend & family were there for me. i spent time letting it all out.. the manifestations of grief & loss- anything frm a childhood act to a mad-hatter's jest. during then, i really understood the patience any parent had to put up with whilst caring for their child. then, i also realised which were my true friends.
the time of void is said to be a time of stillness where you'd think over life & its meaning. its a time to answer queries, settle emotions and preparing the stand for a chance to return to the path of reality.
i wonder how many times i've had been voiding all these years.. smiles. obviously, there's nothing to lose now given im this far. i'll merely accept my fate with time and will only consider it a close if it really is.
i learnt.. life is a stepping stone. you can only fail by slipping but you'll never fail to get yourself up from the water. life is a picture.. there are beautiful paints and amongst, there are also ugly stains. accept the picture & learn to forgive the bad and cherish the good.
we have merely one earth life. for we'll never knw wt's tmrw. live the present moment, do not worry abt the future nor grieve the past. coz life's gift is now.
the greatest love of all is loving yourself. by loving self, you can learn to love others. you cannot make ppl to love you, but you can only try to make yourself to be loved. cherish your loved ones. and feel their warmth in your strength to carry on.
for the advice mom has given me, thank you. for the encouragement thomas has given, thank you. its time now to embark again.. and travel thru the remaining journey. let fate decide as to the two roads of my palm to which one i shall end up in.
my love letter.
with love,
swait zin
students even at this hour were seen coming out of their finished nite classes, happily conversing away among each other. i miss those times of naivety when we're just starting to get a taste of reality as well as freedom of life wherein a university can offer.
fortunately, or unfortunately, my life was meant to strive. i remember every step of the way i was changing.. the experiences i met, the situations i faced & just time alone got me to a change which will never be fixed nor supposedly. from a naive lad who practically enjoys nature from the outset to an anxious being who just hopes to get to where he wants (needs) to.
for the past 6 weeks of my rehab in brunei, i realised a lot of things. my friend & family were there for me. i spent time letting it all out.. the manifestations of grief & loss- anything frm a childhood act to a mad-hatter's jest. during then, i really understood the patience any parent had to put up with whilst caring for their child. then, i also realised which were my true friends.
the time of void is said to be a time of stillness where you'd think over life & its meaning. its a time to answer queries, settle emotions and preparing the stand for a chance to return to the path of reality.
i wonder how many times i've had been voiding all these years.. smiles. obviously, there's nothing to lose now given im this far. i'll merely accept my fate with time and will only consider it a close if it really is.
i learnt.. life is a stepping stone. you can only fail by slipping but you'll never fail to get yourself up from the water. life is a picture.. there are beautiful paints and amongst, there are also ugly stains. accept the picture & learn to forgive the bad and cherish the good.
we have merely one earth life. for we'll never knw wt's tmrw. live the present moment, do not worry abt the future nor grieve the past. coz life's gift is now.
the greatest love of all is loving yourself. by loving self, you can learn to love others. you cannot make ppl to love you, but you can only try to make yourself to be loved. cherish your loved ones. and feel their warmth in your strength to carry on.
for the advice mom has given me, thank you. for the encouragement thomas has given, thank you. its time now to embark again.. and travel thru the remaining journey. let fate decide as to the two roads of my palm to which one i shall end up in.
my love letter.
with love,
swait zin
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