2013

As time ticks tocks towards the new year, my heart just at once felt on its own, mixed~ The only way it led to me was the need to feel what it's like for the past year, what I've gone through and yet somehow lingering to the near distant past. It's a wonder how I still remember to write and when I had relied on my blog so much often before, realising it still comes to use once in a blue moon.

This year is not a bad year` my first head start to a career~ I still remember vividly, during the first few weeks of emergency I was super duper excited just getting to work alone. All I knew in my head was waking up early.. each moment walking to the hospital and spending time chit-chatting means each minute/hour towards earning that much~ I'm just like a bubbly junior citizen finally getting to some use, and the best thing is you're an Intern AND you won't get blamed for anything! so I make use of it, felt so good.. and cudn't imagine how my patience and humbleness towards patients fluorished even in the midst of being the only one of two doctors in the fast track area.

As time goes by, rotations one-by-one passed.. I just felt like my whole perspective of being a doctor changed. you suddenly realised that you are in need to push yourself from just being a full-time clerk to somewhat a person of somebody~ someone known at least by anyone! My rotation allocations led me to a very admirable start, but somehow sloping down towards the end of the year~ either reflecting my particular interest in only certain fields OR that I eventually grew out of energy and patience just working generally in this busy, loaded world.

In the face of these challenges, I am always reminded towards my days as a med student.. trying to strive each moment of time where there's no certainty in everything you do. I'm also reminded of being healthy and well, knowing my future long-term goals and that sometimes even working without the pure enjoyment does seem a bit of struggle, but you know always there are wonderful colleagues to help you through your everyday life. The life towards my career is yet a long journey~ and I feel the need to improve in my learning and standard of competence for the near far future. And that hopefully makes part of this whole new year's resolution.

given too in this past one year alone, I've experienced far more deeply in terms of being in a relationship. I just feel the importance of being needed, the times we go forth toward ups and downs unconditionally and faithfully, the tolerance on meeting each others' discrepancies and we never knew, but we just wanted to go on and on... creating more memories on top of those that have been already sweetly carved into our hearts and minds. I thank you. for being the one. and I wish for all times that you remain with me this coming new year, next year, year beyond and onn.... I love you dear~ :) 

I want to send my condolences to a sister whom I knew from church~ and plse God bless her very beautiful soul and her passion towards Christ. My whole family for best of health and well-being~ my friends, both of the thomases, hoping to achieve love very soon` =) and just anyone else for a blessed new year~ so much to say, I saw Gigi's 2013 post- "Forget the bad things...Value the Good things...". that makes a lot of sense on a positive reachievement towards my personality as a Cancerian. how many pasts I've learnt to forgive and forget, but never fail to reminisce the beauty of the past. and yet that lady has always determined to pull me out of my shell to realise the wonders of what future can bring~

I'm moving soon out from home to Emerald, and there's a lot to clear before doing so. I can't wait to get back home in April already!, this is how much I love Australia~ hah.. and it is to get by this year, and not thinking about the prospect of the year next~ Happy New Year 2013! :)

 - keith