living

have you ever wondered why life is such a funny thing?

when we are born, we are almost like a person of zero mind.. not having any plans.. not knowing the endless possibilities there are.. placed in front of us. with the nurturing environment, we learn to live.. we grew with time into beings with values.. beings who hold a certain idea of what they believe in and what they choose to follow i.e. the meaning of life.

have you ever wondered how and why do you end up the way you are now? are you a person of poverty who struggles for every bread in a town of war and famine.. or are you a person filled with ample opportunity owning great wealth and health with a secure family by your side? are you a smart ass who fits perfectly in the society or are you just a silly bugger who just likes to stay in a corner of his own comfort zone.


never can we explain who we are, and why we are chosen to live this way. nor clarify the events that we've been through and the unforeseeable life that is laid out for us in the future. it may be good or bad. it may be wishful or worrying. but either way, as the morale of this post stands out, the point is.. to live what it is in the present moment.

smetmes I do think and worry a lot. especially during this break period when my mind is nowhere close to being occupied by anything at all.. but free time and space. I may worry abt uncertainties.. like passing an english exam and acquiring an aussie post.. to things like.. whether a bond between 2 ppl will change in the long run with its complicated long distance. yest nite, my buddies reassured me that if I start working, there wud be less time for these nuisances and I wud be plain focus on the present, particularly much on the aspect of my self-worth and appreciation.


just a day ago, I found out that one of my fellowship group leaders in Brissie.. a bright 31-year old lady, with a lovely husband and their only 2-year old daughter, was recently diagnosed with stage 4 lung ca. I was shocked to hear this news.. and asked why God had to put her this way at such a young age. with such an uncertain future, I was reminded to cherish my life that it is now. do wt I can at this present moment, and not to worry abt things that are not within my control.

recently too, I attended my granddad's funeral wch came unexpectedly. he was a man of stature, a caring father who always tght of his kids and grandchildren. bcos of his ideals, most of my uncles and mom were educated, independently earning money & living a decent life. he was most proud of me, always asking my popo and mom when was I graduating. and I never realised hw imprnt my achievement was till that day.. seemingly as tgh he had been waiting for me to come back just to tell him I've succeeded, days before his departure.

Indeed.. wt I am 2day is wt I choose to be. and is an end-product after lots of changes and experiences. therefore, I'd never want to miss a day cherishing myself, for all that I've met in the past or present is just of plain beauty and memory. learning to accept certain things that are meant and not meant to be.. and too, learning to believe and pursue things to the best of your ability, when you trust is meaningful` :)


one thing I do knw abt myself is my loyalty. despite the varied choices, chances or even changes in feelings there may be ahead, I feel to want just only 'one' that. I'm really strong abt this. it will be a period of tests, understanding, trusting of each other and a period of unfolding. despite any hardships, I will believe.. maintain.. and grasp tightly.. as tgh really no other else but only one, who's meant to be.

either way it turns out, I will have no regrets (: cos i've been given the best gift of life for once. an experience that is too right to be true. and will always cherish it. still.. life always comes down to living it` and appreciate the present, for life is too short to worry abt wts ahead.

- keith