illusion

23/5/11

bearing a huge bag on my back with contents of a blanket, laptop, toothbrush & some documents, i was on my way to Aurey's place in the city after a trip from Indooroopilly's Woolies. seemingly like a labourer, i strode my way along the 1st floor of the mall.. not many ppl ard during the wee hours of the nite when i saw a familiar figure approaching ahead.

as always, a petite figure of slightly lower height with the usual black top, denim blue jeans & her ever reminiscent dark-brown dyed coloured hair. as we were closing up, contrary to her usual attitude, this time she brushed her face away totally in the opp direction, exposing her silky hair & side contour of her face wch to this point i was rest-assured.. its her.

i halted.. stood there for a minute. i knew i've come this far to decide things.. you knew Sz wt you wanted to do after all tse years. i rushed back.. two levels down to the only shop that was left open. i searched thru each aisle for moments.. hoping to see that figure. its then when i came to the same aisle we'd previously met.. (remembering you cautiously rolling your trolley past me, whilst then.. i was never ever going to face you forgivingly).. i saw her.

i took a breathe. okay this is it. went straight up.. on closing up, ter was a certain difference to her face that urged me to make a step back. i stared at her for a min, trying to get a clear view.. she glanced & smiled nicely back at me. unfortunately, it was just a courtesy smile. it wasn't her.

i left, leaving out a huge laugh.. thinking how foolish i was :) eventually, turning it into a smile wch enlightened my heart. i realised how much i've changed. i knw one day, we'll meet.. and i make sure we'll come to good terms again. meanwhile, it doesn't matter if we do.. cos we knew we've come this far to become a better person.

- keith