fate

being 2 months here, is a blessing to me. i guess i cud never've imagined i cud extend life in brisbane for such longer. my parents & sis are all warmers. i've enjoyed the best food. the best care. my frens were same vital souls. i can never've the laughs in brisbane. nw i'm heading back, im half ready for another cold war.

i can feel my motivation sloping. its just 2 more years & im heading down. u knw.. i remember a few things in undergrad. i remember.. i used to work for the patients. seeing the sick, i turned my heart for them & keep holding the interest to be studious. then.. i also remember my interest in med played the most part. nw, it seemed so unreal tt i've to learn just to know-all n pass the exams.

i remembered too.. in that year. i was a naive person. i never expected myself hw i cud get the motivation to just cont life in university. only when i met a fren. she was always aiming to get to med. just like me, she had always expressed deeply for the most-typical issues u'd expect in uni years. loneliness.. passing exams.. frenships.. heart breaks. in the end, she changed her route.

i was one of the lucky ppl to meet her. alth for such a short time. she crafted the most carefree n proper frenships ever in my life. alth i've always let go things for the wrong reasons, the idea is either im now delirious or it still means to me. our promise is my motivation. i'll wait 3 more years n work thru. after that, i'll let go.

u can never predict ur fate in life. or even the worse tt can happen. sharon has always motivated me thru this whenever i run out of gas.. -_- a few frens with a few phrases are always helpful. damit- "at the end of the tunnel is a dim light, when ur torch is running low, go find a new battery & replace it." i can laugh at these lame phrases but they mean a lot. in the end, wt drives always comes frm you.

i decided to re-evaluate my learning. well, i'll learn to be more organised n studious. i hope i can rekindle my hope to learn for interest & sympathy. i hope UQ academy will be the learning aid for us. i can never read books of inspiration to get motivation. but i'll always find ways to improve & live life with meaning when i knw in time, i'll get to meet the inspirations i've so met in the past.

- keith