hope

keith & gigi

for the first time, i realise my weakness so deeply.. in this world.

i tried to live. i tried my best to live. every moment of these days. when i'm just by myself. i want to succeed. i want to bring my career back home. but i might fail.

five years. its been hard five years. im tired.. tired of living alone. when i cudn't have a good home meal. withered.. withered for the hardships i faced. and the ones yet to come. dread.. dread things i can't change. even if they've to take everything frm me. they will.

wt is life? if u dunno wt will happen to you. in the future. live to see the world one day.. find your meaning.. then leave the next. is the world worth to live in?

to remind myself for the days to come.
i'll live my best. i'll love myself. even if i've to do this alone. i still got a family to take care of. i need to succeed. even if i don't, i won't mind. cos there are always other options.

i dunno when i'll get there. but i knw i will. i'll see myself as a hope for others who couldn't live long. cos i know, each moment is precious. don't be burdened by things you can't control. keep each loving moment your strength & fight thru. be patient. you'll see thru it.

i want to be making use of the days to come. im 23. i want to build myself. just like G. thru till 33, she has succeed. i envy her. n her attitude. this determination will remain in me for years.