kei`

2day.. i feel a bit different. bit demeaning to my stature.. i guess i also ended up filling my eyes.

i hid the last post. i guess its hard, especially when you had to recollect the sight of a perfect memory.. a mesmerizing inspiration & once a friend. its sad when you knew you had let it off.. after miles of judgement, to leave behind wt's unbearable & find it return to you, when u just had to ignore.

i wished to hug her, yet wish i cud keep onto my promises.. to cont the independence she's instilled upon.. after leaving me for some time. i remember the days..

we'd promise each other- in 3 years time if i graduated frm med, she'd give me a samoyed.. & i'd offer her a mini pig for her imminent psych degree. i remembered our days in lectures.. we'd go thru with pen-clicking & jokes even with the lecturer still doing his job . i remembered.. her releasing her 1st tears, wch totally soften my heart & sympathy to wch i had to console.. i remembered her one day, body-butting me from behind till i almost fell over to the floor.

i remembered the day we were preparing to get our graduation outfits.. & you never knew how much i suffered when she did not graduate. i remembered the days we had never gone below 3 hrs each time in sizzler restaurant.. we're such a chattable pair. lastly, i remembered the day.. u wished me valentine's day even when i've got nothing to do with it.. i remembered all these.

i mourn bcoz i'd let go.. i mourn bcoz i really had let go. we still've got so many years in front of us, its such a waste. but here, plse do move on. its sad.. i really wish you safe. im done here.

- keith