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jst cme bck frm discussion at damit's plce.. we went thru the weekly cases n its enuf to take ard 6 hrs~ -_-``

im sensing sentimental today
i've gne thru 16 weeks of med sch.. during tis period, i can say.. i've always 'tried' to enjoy it. the reason y i said tis is cz life has indeed changed whilst taken up tis course. i enjoy studying med no doubt. n i bet no other beats med in terms of the interest u get. bt yea, it cmes with tt plce in ur mind.. u've to submit to it.. fr the time on.

smetmes when u walk along.. frm sch hence aft classes, the music plays in ur pod.. the only tng tt companies n brings 'heart' at times u need it. gigi's ballets are soothing.. sme give u encouragement.. cheer's give u sense of 'ego' n style.. so wn u walk along, u own a personality u only knw it. as u cont to walk, the day sets.. u go hme, sleep and yet aft tt, its tme to keep up agn.. n work thru.

i've no regrets tgh. i knw life will be limited.. bt im doing tis for the sake of wanting to be a good person in the future. smetmes patience rules out.. smetmes u knew u cud at least add sme glory to ur life.. bt u restrain n keep on. seriously i do think lonely strolls and 'house' are my only sort of leisure just.. nth else. bt real lucky i'm altruistic. i keep on for the sake of ppl i'm yet to help later.

switching to feelings. i was strolling during the nite wn i tght abt tis. yea.. feelings are great. u never get tt sort of greatness ever. n i was thinking it'd be great if i can have a partner.

i loved b4.. its an effortful process.. bt the tng is.. u own one of the tngs in life u wish u'd ever wnt to own. it does take understanding. it does take insideness. n when it happens, it goes forth like anythn. i wish for myself tt.. tt person'd be an appreciation to myself as well as of me to her. but hw rare can tt be? - if u consider love to be only feelings blinded by fold?

i'd had bad exp. two feelings ruin two frenships. n all i cud ever do was move on.. if only relationships.frenships are tt simple in life.. nw nt in favor of anythn near tt. on top of it.. i luv a life of solemn.. so i still can live alone. so tt makes it all fr nw. ~ keith