earlier.. i hoped i won't have to feel the sme feeling over n over agn.. if ters' one tng i'd really hope for.. is to erase tt spontaneity.. tt past, unworthy feeling.. wch all dun seem sensible.. yet still happens.
to build up confidence in facing u is like taking steps along burning rocks to reach a target. i jst wish, yet not, tt u'd be gone for gd.. to allow me tme to heal.. yet wish u'd be reading nw, so in knwing tis.. yet its nt wt i wnt. if u stay.. if u really do.. i'll just have to live with it.
its actually close to nothing. i just wish tt i cud face u normally w.o having my heart to sour evrytme i meet u. its meaningless. hmm.. im sure one person'd ask me to turn to Him..
in 3 weeks, i'll have a huge exam.. its getting on my nerves cz i've been filled with stories abt failures. wt if i cud nt make thru 1st year. i'm getting anxious. yet, i've alwez tried my best.. smetmes i do feel a bit tired n lame aft all tse, bt yea patience.. 3 more weeks, then ready for a gd break. :)
nothing else to talk abt nw.. heart issues.. stress issues.. nw time to study hypertension~
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