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post no.4 and i knw tis is my style-

hw can i ever nt survive without blog? its a lame tght.. bt living in aus doesn't seem to bring u the ecstatics of life wre u can enjoy out in the weekends. tres typically nothing here & i knw i shudn't be even talking abt enjoyment since i dun have the time to do so. bt still life has to chill..

one moment i can just rest along, the next i can be anxious and stress thinking tres no time to kill.. & maybe its just an excuse really bt.. all of us have to prioritise nw im sure. exam is coming in 6 weeks time.

u knw the tng abt going forth in career and anytng besides tt is- u jst eventually had to choose one. on one hand, i can think abt others as a waste of time but on the other, i can dread tt ive nt been maintaining life in the hands of a social view. i personally consulted smeone.. well.. lets just say during the times when i lost my blog, closed off doors frm the society just striving towards wt i feel is best for me.. i generally gt upset.

hmm.. lets jst say 'no man is an island' and one advice given to me was to involve in smethn else non-med.. so to maintain sanity. i admit tt level of sanity was out of bond at times when i was an anti-social brat. it just got onto you and well.. being paranoid? i ought to fight back those tghts tt seem unhealthy and unloving. u knw u just feel like.. hmm.. lets skip this.

im going to care grp tomrw.. for first time exactly aft one year. aft tt i just hope to be joyful ahead.. then probly.. all i ever wnt to think abt is coping with the exam soon.. i have nt gt a good study plan yet.. lets hope by weekend im building up one..

wishes: to my sis for her xm tmrw.. congrats to mom.. for smethn :p evryone to be in good physical & mental health.. be back on anzac day.. sweet impact*

p.s. liz interesting story. u knw i might haf tght tt as well, being more educated and all tt bt.. being too smart is also nt so a good idea.. :)